False Hope

I don't know if i want you, he says. But i do know i don't want anyone else to have you.

It wasn't good enough, i knew that. Honestly i did. In my mind it was crystal clear. My heart however, was having a serious case of selective hearing. All it heard was, i don't want anyone else to have you. And within that---was a glimmer of hope, a spark of optimism.

Keys

Hearts din't have locks, she said.

Some do, he replies. There are people who give away the key to theirs for safekeeping. Others are mistrustful and give out several keys, just in case. Then there are thise who have misplaced them but never cared to look.

What about your heart, she asked.

He smiled.

Your words are the key to mine, he replied.

Never forget your words.

His Kiss

He has me at every whim;

everything start with him.

To all the boys i used to kiss.

everything stops with his.

and this is also another story to tell

i miss you, dude..
i really am.
how are you there?
dont fooling around with the girls, aite?
you must find out the right one. not the HTS one, or TTM one, and whatever you can say.
no.
find the good one. your Mrs. Right.
and that girl is me.
Lol.

i cant sleep. i dont wanna sleep.
i wanna split out everything these days but i cant.
i'm too happy, and fucked up at the same time.
fvck.

another story to tell

lately, there is someone who keep filling my chat Line.
everyday, and everytime.
you know, everyone says that a girl and a boy cant be friend for a long time, bestfriend.
because the other one would be fallen to another. or yeah, friendzone?
and yes, that person is my bestfriend.
he calls me every morning, and every night.
he talks to me everytime.
we talked about everything happened on that day.
we giggling and everything.
like seriously, is this a friendzone? i can say yes, and no.
honestly, hmm i dont know.
i dont know what happened with me either.
ugh.

secret.

Hai, this is me again.
it is 11.31 pm now and i feel lonely.
have you liked someone sooooo much you cant even say it or show it clearly?
it feel like, yeah, lonely. i'm not a loner so, yeah, it sucks.
okay.
i will tell you something.
now, i think, i'm falling in love with someone.
what can i say? i dont know how the feeling of fall in love so yaaa maybe like this.
smiling, and caring, and worrying, and smiling again, then fully caring, and worrying again, and in the end we always wanted to see their face, their body, smelling their scene, and to be around them.
really? am i falling in love?
i think, yes.
and this is a secret :)
psssstttt.

breaking the promise is always easy, no?

the other day, you made a promise, we made it. for us.
and stupidly, i believe on it. still. and keep going.
i dont even know since when you become this important to me.
everything i do, everything i feel, i keep it for you.
there's no guy but you. at least, i keep my heart for you.
my heart, is yours. trust me.
you have to trust on me here even though i really am not sure about myself either.
but seriously, trust me.

and suddenly, you seems like breaking your own promise, ours.
you playin around with many girls there.
i know, maybe (and it seems like) this is my mistake.
i know you think that i'm playin around too here.
then you did to me.
so, what can i do now? what can i say?
how do i say goodbye to what we had? *exaggerating
if we get to see tomotrrow, i hope it's worth all the wait.
(Jason Mraz - It's Hard To Say Goddbye To Yesterday)