I'm sorry maybe i hurt you that much

i just read my hidden blog and realizing that story about you, was the last time i fall in love.
fall deeply into love.
hey, how are you, gutz?
haha?

yesterday, my daddy told me about this.

"if u have a bad thing you hate, just kick them out of ur life and thats all. they gone. just like your thesis, finish it quickly and voila! u will be happy!"

yeah, thanks dad for filling my spirit up up up! full tank! i love you.

i love to use 'everything' word on my last posts.

Someone said "i really miss you" to me, the other day..
and i said, "thanks."
just it.
i'm sorry.
you know, honestly, i didnt really mean it.
it was like, formality? or whatever they say.
i was, to be honest, didnt feel anything about ur confesion.
i want happy, or jumping up happily or anything.
i was just, flat? or numb?

and if i can say it clearly, i feel bored.
bored with us, and with you.
i'm sorry, i kinda annoying one, yes?
thats why i lil bit abandoning you these days.
because, yes, i'm bored.
with everything.

Lately, i feel a bit awkward.
to everything around me,
to you,
and even to me myself.

Lately, i feel a lil' bit sensitive.
i cry over everything.

such a loser, rite?
i don't know.

I just feeling so emotionally uncontroled.
but still, i don't know why.

Maybe i'm just tired?
He said, i'm tired.
over everything and anything.
i dont think so.
but i said, yes i am.

Just like what i said before,
i'm a walking travesty.
haha?

I Can Fall In Love Everyday

On the nite like this,
there is so many things i wanna tell you.

On the nite like this,
there is so many thing i wanna show you.

Cause when you are around,
i feel save and warm.

Cause when you are around,
i can fall in love everyday.

i'm a walking travesty,
but i'm smiling at everything..