akhir-akhir ini gue ngerasa ngga jelas. rasanya sepi, kesepian, fake. bener bener ngga jelas.
bahkan gue ngga minat untuk buang buang uang. yang selalu gue lakuin kalo lagi sumpek.
iya, rasanya sumpek. gue bahkan gatau gue harus ngapain.
gue ngerasa bener bener sepi. not literally. but sometimes, it feels like numb.
pengen teriak marah marah. pengen bilang kalo gue capek. gue lagi capek mengerti.
capek mengalah. capek melawan kekecewaan.
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i don't even know what to tell. what to say.
just keep pretending. like always.
i need my souls. my sevensouls.
i don't need to be pretending at all.
guys, i miss you so much.
so much.....

why is it easier to be mad at the people you trust?
because you know that they will always love you, no matter what.
i wanna be home. just lemme go home. i wanna be home.
please..