Before You Know

It's cold again

I do not know what to do

I need a friend

But all I really want is you

Where have you been?

I haven't seen you for so long

I guess you're gone

You're really gone

So long ago

You told me you'd never leave

But do you know

Things have changed so suddenly

And here I am

Without you

And now the years have passed us by

And I do not know why

Before you tried

You choose to quit

So where are you tonight?

You could make everything right

But instead,

You're missing it

This is it,

all the things that I have done

This is it

everything I have become

So wave goodbye

Cause you can never give it back

No you can't

You really can't

They're will be a day

Where you wish you could go back

Your mistakes will catch up with where you're at

Before you know

All your chances will be gone

They will be gone

But instead

You're missing it.

Daily tasks

i write to eliminate insecurities better.

Friendship and Love. what u prefer?

Some people say that in friendship we share everything: laugh , pain, stories.. and secrets. Even the darkest one.

but this is my question, How if we shared almost everything, we stick almost everyday, we talk almost everytime, but we don't even call it as a friendship? maybe one of them, should stop this and stay away. before it's too late, before it turns into love.

i know, it's kinda late..

Bahkan begitu egoisnya aku,
lebih memilih untuk meninggalkan lebih dulu,
sebelum merasakan sakitnya kehilangan.

Seolah akupun tak mungkin merasakan sakitnya.

lo emang ga butuh gue sedikitpun :)

haloo, selamat weekend semua!
akhirnya gue nulis lagi. gue bercerita, because i'm definitely not a writer actually.
gue cuman seseorang yang suka bercerita. even with my own self. gue rasa emang lebih aman.
tapi kali ini gue lagi pengen bercerita lewat tulisan.

gue lagi ga asik.
that's the clue.
akhir-akhir ini gue ngerasa waktu gue sangat sedikit. dan lebih parahnya, gue ngerasa buang-buang waktu.
i feel like i'm busy enough lately, but what i do is just wasting my time. non sense. ngga penting, dan yeah.. buang-buang waktu. gue kepikiran laporan magang gue. itu yang lagi bikin gue bingung. oke skip.

ada beberapa cerita yang cukup menguras hati dan pikiran gue. jelas, gue ga akan cerita disini. intinya gue lagi cape. gue bahkan ngga ngerti apa yang gue mau. gue bahkan ngga ngerti harus bersenang-senang dengan siapa, karena gue sendiri ngga tau hal senang apa yang bisa bikin gue ngga ngerasa kaya gini. ujungnya, gue jadi merasa semua hal, semua temen-temen gue, jadi ga asik. ngga bisa gue nikmatin. gue-ga-asik.

gue kangen. sama adek rizky, sama keluarga gue, sama sevensoul. gue pengen pulang ke Sidoarjo.
gue tau, gue cuma lagi cape sama semuanya. gue lagi sensitif.
bye.

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