"How can you love when u are afraid to fall?"
i did. but now, nah.
because, i'm the bird and youre the worm.

saat ini gue berada di titik paling menggemaskan dalam hidup gue. gue pengen berhenti kuliah aja. titik.

I'm sorry maybe i hurt you that much

i just read my hidden blog and realizing that story about you, was the last time i fall in love.
fall deeply into love.
hey, how are you, gutz?
haha?

yesterday, my daddy told me about this.

"if u have a bad thing you hate, just kick them out of ur life and thats all. they gone. just like your thesis, finish it quickly and voila! u will be happy!"

yeah, thanks dad for filling my spirit up up up! full tank! i love you.

i love to use 'everything' word on my last posts.

Someone said "i really miss you" to me, the other day..
and i said, "thanks."
just it.
i'm sorry.
you know, honestly, i didnt really mean it.
it was like, formality? or whatever they say.
i was, to be honest, didnt feel anything about ur confesion.
i want happy, or jumping up happily or anything.
i was just, flat? or numb?

and if i can say it clearly, i feel bored.
bored with us, and with you.
i'm sorry, i kinda annoying one, yes?
thats why i lil bit abandoning you these days.
because, yes, i'm bored.
with everything.

Lately, i feel a bit awkward.
to everything around me,
to you,
and even to me myself.

Lately, i feel a lil' bit sensitive.
i cry over everything.

such a loser, rite?
i don't know.

I just feeling so emotionally uncontroled.
but still, i don't know why.

Maybe i'm just tired?
He said, i'm tired.
over everything and anything.
i dont think so.
but i said, yes i am.

Just like what i said before,
i'm a walking travesty.
haha?